The Hardest Part

Recently, Sarah Kate asked when she was going to have a big sister. I explained to her that was never going to happen...SHE would be the big sister if/when it ever happens. Then, she went on to ask about a little sister.

Sarah Kate: "Well, can we go get a little sister today?"
Mommy: "No, sweetie. God has to give us a baby. We can't just go get one. And when God does bless us with a baby...it has to grow in mommy's tummy for a while."
Sarah Kate: "Can I rub your tummy when the baby grows?"
Mommy: "Yes, sweetie. But, there's no baby there yet."
Sarah Kate: "When will there be a baby there?"
Mommy: "I don't know, sweetie. Soon, I hope."

Conversations like these are hard for me. It breaks my heart that right now, we can't make Sarah Kate a big sister. She hears all of her classmates in school talking about siblings. She has none and there's nothing she (or I) can do about it. I know the very few of you reading this blog might think...tough, it's a life lesson. But, it just simply breaks my heart. I know the companionship and love that I share with my brothers and it's priceless. I just hope and pray that someday Sarah Kate can really know and enjoy the reality of being a sister. It's irreplaceable.