First Infertility Step

Well, this morning I ventured across town to CVS and picked up my prescription of clomid. For some reason I was nervous before picking it up. Sounds silly, doesn't it? But, it's me. It's just how I am when the word "pregnancy" enters my mind. I find myself sick with fear and worry. But, this time...today...as I drove the car through our town I prayed. I prayed a very simple prayer. "God, please take this from me." Okay, even as I type it I still tear up. I can't do this anymore. I can't worry and I can't carry this fear with me throughout the issues of trying to conceive and through a pregnancy if we're blessed with one. I simply can't. So, as my prayer went on - I asked God to give me a peace that surrounds me. I want to trust Him. I don't want to think of miscarriages and preeclampsia and preemies. I want to think of hope and trust and faith.
So, as we take this first step towards our treatment in infertility...please pray that prayer with me and for me. Please pray that peace and trust will be the anthem that I sing daily.