My Itty Bitty Baby

Dearest Baby Mine,


I'm carrying your tiny sesame seed sized body around in my belly today. Although I've vowed not to love you yet, for fear of loosing you, I can't help myself. I tell your Daddy that I'm not attached. I tell your myself that I'm okay either way this pregnancy goes. But, the truth is, I'm in love. I can't help it. It's a gift really. God gave it to me. He gave me this wonderful ability to love you right from the very first thought of you. And I do. I am already wondering what you will be. Will you be a little boy that likes to run and play in the dirt? Or will you be another sweet little girl who loves to dress in pink and pearls? Will you look like your big sister? Will you come early like she did? Will you be laid back or full of energy? Will you have brown eyes like your Daddy and me or blue like Sarah Kate?

See? You're only 5 very short weeks old and I already have a mind that is filled with thoughts of you. And a heart that's full of love for you. Am I still scared? Yes. Very. I'm scared that like my last pregnancy - you'll be taken out too soon. I'm scared that I'll never get to meet you and find out the answers to all those questions. But, you know what? I'll love you either way. I'm your Mommy already...even before I have met you and you will always have a spot in my heart. Always and forevermore and that's a promise from me to you, sweet baby.

My prayer is that I will be able to hold you tight in 8 or so months. That I'll be able to smell your sweet baby face and kiss your little head. My prayer is that God will bless you and I both with health throughout the months ahead. And until we meet, my sweet baby, know that you've already found a spot in my heart and in my mind.

I love you dearly,

Mommy